Essence Goldman & Merkley 

For my father's father
For my mother's mother
The dances have all been done
As my father's daughter
I'm standing here before you
to tell you I’m my mothers sun.

Do you know how it feels to miss someone?
dancing alone, where you can't see the sun
In my daddy’s name, I carry on
Dancing all my dances, ’til the music is gone

For my chosen sisters and
brothers from other mothers
Keep dancing and having fun
misses ma’ams and misters
if you like her you should kiss her
And love her like the rivers run

Do you know how it feels to miss someone?
Dancing alone, where you can't see the sun
In my mother’s name, I carry on
Dancing all my dances, ’til the music is gone

Essence Goldman, Merkley, Rachel Hoiem, Roman Weingartner 

Woke up this mornin 
And the birds were singin’
Had a bad dream of 
wedding bells ringing
standing by a cake
with a lover who never loved me
I’m a warm summer breeze
in a getaway car,
don’t know where I’m goin 
but it betta be far.
All I know is I ain't comin home to you.

I’m free, I ain’t crying about you
I’m free, I ain’t worried about you
I’m free, I’m free oh baby I’m free
I’m free, cause I’m me
I’m me, cause I’m free
I’m free, and I don’t need you

I’m cuttin your ropes
I’m breakin your chains
I’m living without you
It ain't the same
Ain’t takin your shit
Ain’t playin your games
I’m free of your crap
I’m free of your pain

I used to choke up every time 
I’d think about leaving
but I’ve got these dreams
You never I believed in
I’m over the moon
I ain’t under your spell no more
gonna head out to space
shoot for the stars
leave the past in the dust
shake the rust off my heart
When it all settles down
I’ll be ready for a brand new start

Chorus 

I’m free of your guilt
Ain’t takin the blame
I’m happy without you
Walking in the rain
I’m free as a bird
I’m loose as a goose
I slipped the noose
I’m free of you---------

I'm free -I made it out alive
Made it to the other side
I’m free - I’m free
I might’ve stayed too long
But I’m up and gone I’m free
I’m free - baby I’m free
I am free.

Essence Goldman 

My tears they won't bring you back
My tears they won't bring you back
Gonna buy me a bottle and smoke me a pack 
Cause I know my tears won't bring you back

I said my prayers and made amends
Said my prayers and made amends
Maybe one day if we meet again 
We can laugh about life just like old friends

I'll see you on the other side
I'll see you on the other side
None of us gets out alive
So it won't be long till I see you on the other side

I'd know you if you had no face
I'd know you if you had no face
Peace in the river, leaves of a tree
A blade of grass or a centipede

Your spirit is with us
Your spirit is with us
Body mighta broke down and turned to dust
But that don't mean you ain't with us

You come to me in dreams at night
You come to me in dreams at night
Under the big sky, under the stars
You just can't find love like ours 

Love like ours
Love like ours

Love like ours

Craig Morton & Essence Goldman

She’s found her new man should she play her new hand
And gamble on somebody new
Could she be free should she now flee
And break someone’s heart in two

Should I gamble should I gamble
Stay at home or should I ramble
I’m coming apart at the seams
Should I gamble should I gamble
Will my life be in shambles
Hold my cards or bet on wild dreams

She could travel around and play that new sound
With a new love that’s swept her away
He’s hot and he’s fast but will this love last
Or shatter her world for this play

Should I gamble should I gamble 
Stay at home or should I ramble 
I’m coming apart at the seams 
Should I gamble should I gamble 
Will my life be in shambles 
Hold my cards or bet on wild dreams

Steady and true or exciting and new 
Will her kids’ world get turned upside down
She’s been here before does she really want more
For this new life she thinks that she’s found

So much she has felt since these cards she’s been dealt
There’s an ace and a jack and a king
In her heart she yearns in her soul she burns
The wrong bet she could lose everything

Should I gamble should I gamble 
Stay at home or should I ramble
I’m coming apart at the seams
Should I gamble should I gamble 
Will my life be in shambles 
Hold my cards or bet on wild dreams

Essence Goldman, Roger Rocha, Rebekah Barnett 

I’m a good mom
I wanna get stoned 
I wanna get boned
I wanna get high as a kite
I wanna drink whiskey tonight 
And I just might
I’m gonna raise these kids
Get em up n out
And then I can fly

First thing in the morning
Gotta make the lunches
He wants pasta she wants a bagel 
but with no smoked salmon cause she hates fish
Check his homework, feed the cat
Pick out her clothes
Break up the fight at the breakfast table

I’m a good mom
I wanna get stoned 
I wanna get boned
I wanna get high as a kite
I wanna drink whiskey tonight 
And I just might
I’m gonna raise these kids
Get em up n out
And then I can fly

Brush her hair
Grab his sweater
Listen to some music 
that makes me feel old on the drive to school
Squeeze in a phone call
Steal a shower, pay the bills
Go to mediation

Get a haircut
Clean the house, 
wash the dishes
scrub the tub and the toilet
Sweep the floor, vacuum
Make the beds 
do the laundry
And…. back in the car

Change the oil, 
fill the tank, cross the bridge, call my Mom
Text my boyfriend 
text him again, snap a selfie, 
stop at the store, smile at the old man 
in the dairy section
Plan some meals
Get a cooked chicken

Pull in the parking lot
Try to make small talk with the other good Moms
Sign out the children
Hug them, kiss them, help them 
with their safety belts
Hop in the front seat 
Roll down the windows, adjust the mirror
Let’s argue in the traffic on the way home

I’m a good mom
I wanna get stoned 
I wanna get boned
I wanna get high as a kite
I wanna drink whiskey tonight 
And I just might
I’m gonna raise these kids
Get em up n out
And then I can fly

Essence Goldman & Danny Uzilevsky

Wasn’t looking for trouble
Never meant to cause no one no pain
But I guess I’ve got no one ‘cept 
Myself to blame
Got the words of the Bible 
Hanging over my head
And I’m trying to remember the wise words
That somebody said

I’m damned if I do and I’m damned if I don’t quit you
I can’t be trusted alone 
with my thoughts of you
You’re the first thing I think of when I wake up in the morning
You're the last thing I see 
when I close my eyes at night

I was searching for someone
I thought that I’d never find
Only to discover 
you were standing next to me all this time
But life had it’s way
And I guess it’s already too late
Cause the white picket fence 
and the family’s already in place

Don’t wanna spend an eternity longing for you
With these wings and this halo and a heart that’s broken in two
If you get to the gate 
and St Peter won’t let you through
What’s the point of heaven 
if heaven isn’t with you

Repeat Verse 1
Chorus

Essence Goldman 

It’s been 12 long years 
and you still won’t talk to me
You still won’t talk to me
You still won’t talk to me
It’s been 12 long years 
and you still won’t talk to me
I wouldn’t talk to me too

I wouldn’t talk to me 
if someone did to me
The things I done to you
I said I wouldn’t talk to me 
if someone did to me
The things I done to you

Well I got no right to ask 
I wear my sorrow like a badge
Wear my sorrow like a badge
sorrow like a badge
Well I know I got no right to ask 
I wear my sorrow like a badge
Let the tears stream down my face 
leaving lines in their wake

Wear my sorrow like a flag 
hanging at half mast
Cause I’ve got no right to ask
I’ve got no right to ask
I wear my sorrow like a flag 
hanging at half mast
Cause I got no right to ask

It’s been 12 long years 
and you still won’t forgive me
You still won’t forgive me
You still won’t forgive me
It’s been 12 long years 
and you still won’t forgive me
I wouldn’t forgive me too

Well if someone did to me
What I done to you
Wouldn’t forgive them too
If someone did to me
All the things I done to you
I wouldn’t forgive them too

Ain’t it funny as the years roll 
they shed a crystal light
They shed a crystal light
They shed a crystal light
Ain’t it funny as the years roll 
they shed a crystal light
On what was lost in the night

Ain’t it funny how the years roll
And time has a way
Of softening the lines, softening the lines
Ain’t it funny how the years roll
And time has a way
Of softening the lines

It’s been 12 long years 
and you still won’t talk to me
You still won’t talk to me
You still won’t talk to me
It’s been 12 long years 
and you still won’t talk to me
I wouldn’t talk to me too

Essence Goldman 

Lord took my father and gave me a son
Lord took my father and gave me a son
And that was how his life begun
Lord took my father and named my son

Mmmmmm
Mmmmmm
Mmmmmm
Mmmmmm

Traded true love for a a heart of stone
Traded true love for a heart of stone
The next 10 years I slept alone
Traded true love for a heart of stone

Mmmmmm
Mmmmmm
Mmmmmm
Mmmmmm

A shooting star fell at my feet
A shooting star fell at my feet
Hold her up for the world to see
Shooting star fell at my feet

Mmmmmm
Mmmmmm
Mmmmmm
Mmmmmm
Mmmmmm
Mmmmmm
Mmmmmm
Mmmmmm

essence & Merkley

Did you sleep last night?
Did you sleep last night?
Were you free last night?
Were you with me last night?

If you were free
Did you even think of me?
Did you sleep last night?

Did you cry last night?
Did you fly last night?
Did you get high last night?
Did you die last night?

I don’t know why
We ever said goodbye
Did you sleep last night

Were you free last night?
Did you sleep last night?
Did you sleep last night?

Craig Morton, Essence Goldman, Jeffrey Pease

Gonna lay my head on the ground
This world is spinning me around
Paid the price for too much good advice
I don’t want to let you down

You can resist and deny  
But the heart doesn’t lie
Run away you can try
But the heart doesn’t lie
There’s that look in your eye
‘Cause the heart doesn’t lie
It doesn’t lie
It doesn’t lie
The heart doesn’t lie

Breathe the water in
Sometimes you gotta sink to swim
Even losers can still be choosers
Give the wheel another spin

You can resist and deny  
But the heart doesn’t lie
Run away you can try
But the heart doesn’t lie
There’s that look in your eye
‘Cause the heart doesn’t lie
It doesn’t lie
It doesn’t lie
The heart doesn’t lie

Tigers through every door
And I always want one more
Perched on the mast, I'm leaving home at last
I don’t wanna see the shore

You can resist and deny  
But the heart doesn’t lie
Run away you can try
But the heart doesn’t lie
There’s that look in your eye
‘‘Cause the heart doesn’t lie.. It doesn’t lie.. It doesn’t lie. The heart doesn’t lie

Craig Morton, Essence Goldman

Meet me in the stars sweetheart 
Thats what he said to me
We found a love that we both know 
Will last eternally  
That big vast sky from east to west
From dusk to early morn
I’ll meet you in the stars sweetheart
That’s where our love was born

Those big bright eyes
That smiling face that heart that shines like gold
Never has there been a love like ours
No matter how or if or when this story has been told
Forever it is written in the stars

Meet me in the stars sweetheart
That’s where we’ll sing and play
A love like ours so very hard to find
I’ll see you in the night time
And I’ll miss you in the day
Our hearts will be forever intertwined

This love came out of time and space
No beginning or no end
It’s deeper than the bottom of the sea
I love you always and forever
On you I will depend
I was made for you and you for me

Meet me in the stars sweetheart 
That’s what he said to me
We found a love that we both know
Will last eternally
That big vast sky from east to west
From dusk to early morn
I’ll meet you in the stars sweetheart
That’s where our love was born

Essence Goldman & Merkley

I wouldn’t blame you
If you never want to talk to me again
I wouldn’t blame you
If you dumped me and you found a new best friend

I let you down
I did you wrong
I wouldn’t blame you
If you felt that it was time to move along

I’d say I’m sorry
But sorries ain’t good for nothing
So now where are we
The weight of losing you
is crushing
Crushing

I’d understand
If you never want to look at me again
I’d understand
If you cannot forgive me in the end

I take the blame
I’m so ashamed
I never meant to cause you sorrow
I never meant to cause you pain

Chorus

And I can’t take it back
I can’t make it right
So I’m letting you go
Here tonight

I’d say I’m sorry
But sorries ain’t good for nothing
So now where are we
The weight of losing you
is crushing
Crushing

Crushing.

Essence Goldman & Merkley

You must be hurtin'
to hurt me, like you do.
Of all things I’m certain
Baby, I’m hurtin’ just like you.

I hope it helps to know
You’re not alone
You and I ain’t made of stone,
we're flesh and bone
Flesh and bone, mmmhmm

Please come home

I know you must be in pain
to run me down with your train
Don’t you know I feel the same,
and I ain’t here to place the blame.

What would it take to swallow pride
and not run and hide
You and I are gonna live and die
and I know why
You and I ain’t made of stone,
we’re flesh and bone
Flesh and bone, mmmhmm

Please come home